tHe MOnkEy'z LiFe

2004-05-04T11:14:00.000+10:00

hi hoo...i'm so happy today...happy ya ya yaaaa.... :) i just knew me accounting exam result a moment ago...got it via email..coz i didn't turn up for class yesterday..anyhow...i get 71!!!! yiiipiieeee...HAHAHhahahahHHAhahaha i feel like jumping around and screaming like some idiot..i guess some of you will think why do i have to be so freaking happy for getting 71...i know it's not 100 nor it is 90...but hey...i did it all by myself!!! i didn't cheat...i didn't ask anyone bout the question before the exam...well i guess for some of us who read Ipone's blog..as she was saying bout how indo tend the cheat and stuff like that....i never cheat...i did it back then when i was at primary school..but i think i did it perhaps of peer pressure or curiosity ...anyway...and yeah...some of my indo friend in here think that i'm an idiot for not cheated or ask the question before hand...and i guess i am very different with most of the indo here who do business..either it's MBA or a bachelor of commerce...not only different in appearance...but different in the way i socialized with others. I don't tend to join the crowd or hang around in campus spilling the beans over some gurl going out with that guy or stuff like that...you know....in fact..i hated it...what happen is that i tend to be by myself...sit in the front row...of course sometimes i feel bored ..or feel like wanting to be somewhere else instead...but if i do, i don't chitt chatting with others...giggling around at the back...it's so freaking rude to do that...anyway....i have sooooo many chapter that i have to read...oh and one more thing..i decided to change my major to art management...gonna be fun fun fun!!..oh well...better get back to reading...well i guess my last word today will be.......art people can do business too!!!!.....so screw you all who think that art people don't use their brain!!!....not only that i have to use my right brain..but i used my LEFT brain as well....

2004-04-02T11:07:00.000+10:00

WHOaa..*lagi nyumput di balik baju*..malu..udah lama ngga buka Blog...buka2 lagi gara2 si Ipone kemaren ini mau minta izin taro foto gue di blog dia...(you see..one thing that I really really like bout her tuh dia selalu ask for permission if she think whatever she wanna do tuh bakalan mengganggu privacy orang...she is very polite..so to those of you who think that she's a rude person or stuff like that...shame shame shame on you..) anyway...back to story..jadi hari ini gue baca blog ipone...and TA-DaaaAaa...the first thing I saw is the heading "SYLVIANA"...whooaaa....me name....i saw me name...then I went to the "content" of it...Whooaa...next thing I knew...I feel like hidding underneath the table....*mallluuuu*....thanks pon for all the things that you've said..mean a lot to me...soalnya selama gue hidup, ngga banyak orang yang bener2 appreciate gue punya talent. yeah mereka bilang karya gue bagus and stuff like that..tapi once gue bilang klo gue mau pake ini buat gue hidup..orang2 pasti either raise their eyebrows or just stare at me like I'm some kind of alien..apa rasanya? mmm i feel like slicing each and everyone of them into pieces...Nah..kidding.... :) My very first reaction way way way before was...confused...i was so confused coz I couldn't find the answer..apa gue harus ikutin kata mereka? apa gue harus ikutin kata hati gue?...that's the reason why I started to like reading...I read a lot...cuman sayang gue ngga ada waktu..but if i do have time..i kill it by doing some reading...

my very first book is "Life and Death in Shang Hai" by Nien Cheng, "Dyson: Against the Odd" by James Dyson then "Falling leave" by Adeline Yen Mah..met the author once though..asked her to sign my book..then, I read "Ten Thousand Pieces of Gold" again by Adeline Yen Mah..and the next book is "Harry Potter", then..

I started to think...hey..I don't really find the answer by reading this book...yes I figured out that I need to survive..especially by reading "life and death in shanghai"..and I remember reading Dyson, he really inspired my...you see..I don't really have any idol in term of actresses or actors or singer and stuff like that..I like them...but I don't think i'll cry or stuff like that when I have the chance to meet any of them...however....but when I have the change to meet Dyson, or Hillary Clinton or Mandela, for sure I'll be like some kindda of child who meet their superheroes...i really admire them...

Anyhow...Yup..as you can tell...i started reading a book about a great leader or achiever...coz you know what...a great leader/achiever don't swim along the stream..but they swim against the stream....and that's what I intended to do...swim against the stream...sound great hey...but you know what...i've been swimming against the stream for...around 3 years now..and it really kills me...well sometimes i'm loving it...but sometimes i feel so.."paralysed"..

As you all know after reading Ipone's blog..I'm studying MBA now...it's been a weird yet beautiful journey...I love the reading..*eventhough sometimes I feel so frustated...coz the reading is like ....a lot!!) ...weird in a way...coz I remember the first class...you know how the first class is right? we all have to introduce ourself..stating our previous degree or accomplishment..and stating the reason for doing MBA...well I always start my line by "I juz finished doing Digital Media course at UNSW..."...sometimes I could feel like some people stared at me..then...the line goes like this ..." I wanna do MBA coz I want to have a design firm"...and one...two...three....*just like an actress who's waiting for a clap after his/her performance*...somepeople started to raise their eyebrow..some look at me in a weird kindda way...some of my lecturer do actually say "Oh"..in a weird kindda tone...

Then....I remember having one of my high school friend in one of my class...this guy started to introduce me to his friend..you know how Indo tend to introduce Indo to one another?...anyhow...then my friend start the line by "she's from art background.."...then..somehow after a couple of line...his friend said to me "well...you know how business in different with art...you don't have to THINK if you do art..." ..........and for that split second...my heart start pumping, my blood feel like it wanna burshed...gosh...I hate that WORD!!...but hey...it's the word that I keep on hearing since the past 3 years...my solution is to embrassed those word...and tell me-self that one day..i'm going to tell the world that we don't have to be ashame of our talent, our ability..that's why we're all here...to make use of our talent and ability...

you know what...I started to read philosophy...I've done a bit of reading of aristotle...*bought the book but don't have time to read*...and i'm thinking of buying a plato....i want to know the reason...i want to be wise..i want to be reasonable.....but one thing for sure...i want to be acknowledge but humble in the same time...

well...i guess the story is not ended yet...so many great journey ahead of me..and ahead of each one of us...but one thing for sure..we all crawl before we walk..(a comment that I made in Ipone's blog)...and another thing that I learn...don't forget our roots...don't be such a snob (that's how we say it in oz)..even when we know how to run..remember that we all have to crawl...so if we have someone who is crawling at the time...don't laugh at them...don't isolate them...help them to walk...then to run....

oh and one more thing...I want to carve my name in this earth...each and everyday, i'll do it in a little dot...so that one day....it'll be in my full name....alrighty..gotta go....ciao....

2003-10-24T11:12:00.000+10:00

whoaa....gue depressed... :( banyak kerjaan....aargh....need a break!.... whoaa....tinggal 2 minggu lagi...aduh duh duh....sakit punggung gue kumat lagi..hiks... :(

2003-10-17T15:35:00.000+10:00

--lagi KUmat gila-nya--

HahahahA...kemaren gue mo mati ketawa sama si Adam..gue sama dia tuh bener2 lagi in the Stress MOde...jadi kadang2 tuh aduuuhh saking setressnya jadi rada2 sinting...Kemaren gue ngobrak ngabrik lemari baju gue..dan gue temuin celana ketat gue yang kaya buat senam...ngga pernah gue pake coz 1) gue benci senam..2) bermotif!! garis2 dan satu lagi kotak2.....

terus gue pake celana itu...mo bikin si adam mati ketawa...jadi gue pake yang motifnya kotak kotak item putih, terus gue pake celana pendek warna merah, terus atasannya kaos warna biru..not only that outfit gue tuh bener2 ngga nyambung, gue masukin kaos gue ke celana pendek, terus celananya gue pake sampe seperut...si adam pas ngeliat mo mati ketawa..terus dia bukannya suruh gue ganti baju malahan mo ikutan pake baju kaya gitu...kebetulan dia ada celana pendek warna item di rumah gue, bekas waktu itu maen tennis....jadi gue suruh dia pake yang garis2...terus pake celana item, terus dia pake kaos kaki item, terus atasannya pake kaos warna biru.....dan sama kaya gue, bajunya dimasukin ke celana terus celananya ditarik sampe se-perut...WhoahroaehOHROAEHRA...mati ketawa gue berdua sama dia.....

terus ngaca sambil pasang muka aneh, dan postur tubuh yang aneh, kaya busungin perut ke depan sambil badan di bongkok-in...HUAHUHRUARHruahurheuahrauh gila gila-an...kocak abis....terus pasang gigi tongos....mata disipit2in...gila lah......sadar2 udah jam 9 malem..AhhahahahahhA..abis itu panik ngerjain tugas......

it was one of those memory yang gue rasain bareng adam...masih banyak ke-gila-an gue berdua sama dia...glad to have someone like him....dan yang gue seneng dari adam tuh dia ngga share dia punya "madness" sama orang luar..jadi having him to share his true self cuman sama gue doang tuh quite an honour.....hehehehheheheh.....he's such a rare "creature"....

2003-10-17T15:04:00.000+10:00

--Teringat Masa Kecil--

Ngebaca bLog si pone Bikin gue Jadi inget mAsa kecil...waktu Kecil, gue tiap hari minggu pasti ikut lomba gambar...selama berapa taon yah?....8 taon..atau lebih kali..perhaps gue harus berterima kasih sama nyokap gue yang selalu nemenin gue setiap minggu...kecuali waktu bokap dari nyokap meninggal di singapore...bokap gue yang nganterin gue lomba..tapi dasar bokap bokap...yang ada dia cuman turunin gue sama koko gue di depan tempat lomba gambarnya, terus gue sama koko gue berdua bawa2 meja gambar, alat gambar sendiri, dan nge-daftar ulang sendiri, sedangkan dia ke rumah lagi boker...balik2 cuman jemput gue doang 2 jam setelah itu..hHAhahaha...tapi pas di tanya nyokap, dia bilang dia nganterin gue, dll..eehh tau2nya pas minggu depannya, ada mami2 dari anak yang ikutan lomba bilang "waah si arief sama si silvi mening pinteran..nge jing jing2 meja sorangan (sendirian), nge daftar ulang sorangan..kamu kemana emang?"..dari situ dia tau ternyata bokap gue boong..AHAHHAHAhahaHAhaha......kocak...it's one of those memory yang ngga bakalan gue lupain..in fact gue selalu ngetawain bokap gue yang bukannya nganterin gue, malahan boker getuh ke rumah..AHHhahahahaa.....

mmm....terus gue baru ganti description ttg gue di friendster..disitu gue tulis memory gua waktu gue umur 10 taon-an..hampir tiap hari gue suka duduk deket tong sampah di office bokap-nyokap gue..terus "kerjaan" gue tuh ngumpulin barang2 yang masih bisa dipake...kaya pensil yang masih setengah tapi udah dibuang...atau penghapus yang gedenya masih 2 cm-an...suka gue ambil lagi...terus gue taro di meja...yang kebesokan harinya dibuang lagi sama nyokap..HAhahahAha...nyokap gue itu orangnya rapiii banget...dia seneng semuanya bersih, rapi...cemerlang...dan sifat dia nurun ke gue...tapi klo dia tuh bener2 mau rapi sepanjang masa..klo gue tuh yang masih bisa tahan ngeliat buku2 gue betebaran di kamar klo gue lagi ngerjain tugas...and knowing that in the end of the semester, gue bakalan ngomel2 kamar gue berantakan..and spending the rest of the day bersihin kamar..

but i guess klo diliat2...personality gue yang emang seneng ngutak ngatik sesuatu..bikin barang lama jadi barang baru udah keliatan dari dulu...gue suka designing something..gue suka mikirin cara supaya gue punya barang yang lagi "in" but in the same time re-using my old stuff...kaya beberapa minggu yang lalu gue gunting celana gue, terus gue jadiin rok...terus gue gunting baju gue supaya kaya model sekarang yang kesannya ngasal...atau gue gunting rok gue yang se-dengkul supaya jadi rok mini..banyak lah...sampe mami gue suka bilang "jangan macem2....."

and i am thankful klo si adam juga samanya kaya gue...dia klo ngeliat barang2 bekas tapi masih bagus tuh suka di utak atik...dan dia juga sama kaya gue orangnya ngga bisa diem...klo ada sesuatu yang bisa dia buat pake benda2 yang ada di rumahnya, pasti dia buat...love you hun....

2003-10-14T23:53:00.000+10:00

--act like a grown up--

mmm barusan gue di mobil kepikir..dari mana kita bisa tau klo kita udah acting like a grown up...i mean...to be mature dari segi pemikiran dan sudut pandang kita terhadap semua hal...

belakangan ini gue tuh bener2 in my lowest lowest point of mmm yah...point of living...i mean i've been "abused" verbally by one person..and it's the feeling of not being able to do something about it yang bikin gue kaya trap within this black hole..you know...dan yang lebih parahnya tuh gue ngga dapet dukungan dari orang2 yang gue harapkan dan idolakan...itu tuh kaya pepatah yang "udah jatoh tertimpah tangga" (atau si adam bilang "udah jatoh tertimpah tetangga")...hati gue tuh kaya retak....udah kaya telor pecah aja..once it's been cracked open, mo diapain juga tetep aja keliatan garis2nya...bikin gue males ngerjain tugas..padahal gue tinggal 3 minggu lagi beres...bener2 lah....mo ngapain salah, ini itu salah.....it's the worst feeling ever..ver..ver..ver.......

But Then....suddenly..tadi di mobil kaya kejatohan tetangga lagi...tapi in a good way...gue tiba2 mikir..well i guess this is the part of being a grown up..gue dulu pernah ngomong ke ipone, hidup tuh kaya berjalan sambil naro batu di setiap langkah yang kita lalui...dari batu batu itu juga kita bisa sampe ke tujuan kita..batu2 itu ada sebagai tanda "kehidupan" yang udah kita lalui...jangan pernah sesali apa yang udah ditaro...But..take it as a lesson to learn...

nah dalam soal ini...gue mikir...gue tidak seharusnya menyesali apa yang udah terjadi sama gue...take it as a rock yang gue taro di jalan menuju masa depan gue...untuk di dalemin dan di dendam-in juga ngga ada gunanya...yang ada gue jadi ngga maju2 ke depan..stuck in this point...dan gue rasa..dengan ini gue juga bisa menjadi lebih dewasa lagi...

dan..the best part tuh...yang kepikir di gue begini....kita ngga berhak menghakimi orang..cuman di-atas yang tau...orang yang dewasa itu, orang yang bisa mengendalikan emosi-nya..biar yang di-atas aja yang tau...dan kita...harus bisa tersenyum, berjalan dengan hati terbuka dan bangga, berjalan menuju masa depan...

sip?....being childish is the easiest way untuk get the hell out of the problem, but...it wouldn't solved anything but troubled you in the future.

cheers.....

==the MonKeyZ==

2003-10-09T23:30:00.000+10:00

==applying my black nail polish==

...tiap kali gue pake nail polish item gue, gue jadi inget kejadian dimana gue ketemu seseorang yang dah mmm 5 taon ngga ketemu gue. Pas gue temuin dia, gue pake nail polish item gue, gue inget hari sebelomnya dia tlp gue, kaya bener2 niat ketemu gue, nah pas ketemu biasa2 aja...tapi malemnya pas gue tlp-in, waahh beribu2 alesan..ngga ada lah..lagi jalan2 lah.. as if gue ngga tau toko tutup jam berapa...mungkin gue salah duga, but gue punya firasat klo dia ngga mau in touch sama gue gara2 kuku item gue...

sakit hati?? ngga juga..hak dia mo nilai gue apa aja..tapi personally, gue paling males sama orang yang suka nilai orang dari luarnya...no offence tapi gue rasa kita ngga bisa nilai seseorang hanya dari cara dia berpakaian or something like that...

gue inget pertama kali masuk uni gue, by the way uni gue tuh dipisah dari main campus. perbedaan antara uni gue sama main campus tuh like hell..i mean klo di main campus, semua orang tuh dress the same..jeans, t-shirt, stuff like that..tapi klo di uni gue, orang2 tuh dress-nya beda2..ada yang pake rok terus pake celana lagi..ada yang rambut warna pink, biru, you name it..pertama2 gue pikir "nih orang ngga malu apa?"...tapi lama makin lama..gue respect mereka punya choice..mereka punya freedom of expression..dan yang pasti gue juga jadi bisa lebih mengenal siapa gue tanpa di "influenced" orang lain..

jadi in conclusion.....be expressive..dare to be different...dan percaya sama apa yang loe percayain...gue percaya bahwa setiap orang tuh unique...and i fully respect that...itu yang bikin kita ini one of a kind right?

2003-10-05T21:49:00.000+10:00

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blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
so i don't know what's real and what's not
always confusing the thought in my head
so i can't trust myself anymore
i'm dying again
i'm going under
drowning in you
i'm falling forever
i've got to break through
so go on and scream
scream at me i'm so far away
i won't be broken again

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2003-09-29T12:42:00.000+10:00

...pretty screw up....

i hate you..i know i can't hate you and i know i shouldn't hate you..but the way you yell at me with those eyes..and those voice...i freaking hate you...you treat me like shit...for so long i've been trying to make things right...to freaking understand you...but i guess there are some thing that i couldn't pretend..i couldn't deny...anymore.....argh...don't know what to do....don't know what to say....all i can do is sit here in silent...let the silent overcome my hatred...

2003-09-10T22:50:00.000+10:00

gue: "Tangkep buaayaaa!!!".....*guubraaakkk*..........
adam: "aduuh...."

AHAHAhaHAHAhaha.......barusan gue tindih2 tuh monyet satu...pretending klo gue lagi nangkep buaya...abisnya dia lagi gaya tiduran di karpet *in which dia lagi bantuin ngerjain project gue*.....udah kaya buaya nungging....gemes guee....dengan gaya setengah jingjit2.....secepat kilat gue jatohin seluruh badan gue ke badannya...AHHAHAHAHAHahhaha...(ngga tau diri)

abis itu gue tindih2...ngga lupa gue cekek2....hehehehhee...emang paling asik klo dia lagi disini....bisa gue "abuse"....hahahaha...waktu itu betisnya gue coret2 pake spidol terus kuku kakinya gue gambarin hati satu satu...dari jempol sampe kelingking...AHAHahahaHAHaha....

luv ya huney...and i always will.....

-silvi dan monyetnya-...forever.... :)

2003-09-10T22:30:00.000+10:00

--is it ethical?--

kemaren temen2 koko gue dateng ke rumah gue..anyway...i couldn't help overhearing mereka punya percakapan...and it went like this: (by the way mereka kindda lagi ngomongin ttg business)

temen koko: "eh loe tau ngga sih business yang ngambil2in shark fin...bla bla blaa........jadi tuh cara ngambilnya si sirip2 ikannya dipotongin straight after si hiu-nya ditangkep terus abis itu dibuang ke laut"

koko gue: "hah? terus ikannya gimana?"

temen koko gue :" yah ngga bisa berenang..jadi mati deh pelan2?"

koko gue: "bla bla bla"

temen koko gue: "eehh tapi untung lagi business kaya gitu!"

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gue dalam hati : "you 'lil piece of shit!....untung??!!! it's so not fucking ethical you...$#$Q#%!!!!".....

si adam juga ada disono....dia juga kaya "what???!!!!!....freaking hell!!!"....*bisik-bisik*...

and once again..gue sama si adam ngebahas ttg hal ginian...and then...kita menarik kesimpulan bahwa.....sadly enough....there are still ppl out there who think that MONEY is everything...

being a designer, hal seperti ini tuh ngga aneh..ngga usah ngomongin ethical atau ngga ethical...pendapat orang ttg designer aja udah like a freaking piece of shit dengan vision bahwa pekerjaan kaya gue ini cuman "ngelamun"...in which rasanya pengen gue bantai orang2 seperti itu...BUT...reality bites...minoritas selalu kalah...oh well...anyway...like i care apa kata orang2..yang penting..percaya sama apa yang kita percayain...and the rest is history...saaaaaaaaaahhhh...udah ah..jadi pengen marah2 rasanya...masih sebel gue sama kata2 bahwa "business seperti itu untung lagi!!!"...hooeeekkkk..........go to hell.....

2003-08-23T21:13:00.000+10:00

Some people
think they know what i should do
well they don't really know
what i've been through

And i don't care
Don't care what you have to say
cos it's my life
and i'll do as i may

--kelly osbourne-- "on your own"

2003-08-18T18:29:00.000+10:00

Now i will tell you what i've done for you
50 thousand tears i've cried
screaming deceiving and bleeding for you
and you still won't hear me
don't want your hand this time i'll save myself
maybe i'll wake up for once
not tormented daily defeated by you
just when i thought i'd reached the bottom
i'm dying again

i'm going under
drowning in you
i'm falling forever
i've got to break through
i'm going under

blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
so i don't know what's real and what's not
always confusing the thought in my head
so i can't trust myself anymore
i'm dying again

i'm going under
drowning in you
i'm falling forever
i've got to break through

so go on and scream
scream at me i'm so far away
i won't be broken again
i've got to breathe i can't keep going under

--going under-----evanescene "fallen"

2003-08-11T23:39:00.000+10:00

"dam..gue bego yah...."

itu lah kata2 yang paling sering gue sebut....abisnya emang gue suka bego sih...klo di jelasin..gue tuh a kindda person yang bakalan taro bolpen di kuping then 5 menit kemudian marah2 nyari bolpen itu...dan beberapa jam kemudian baru sadar klo bolpennya di kuping..hehheheheh

dan banyak lagi kejadian2 yang rada2 ngga jelas kaya gitu...aneh2 aja...ada lah yang gue pake baju kebalik...atau kancingnya tinggi sebelah...atau dateng ke kelas pagi2 dan panik ngeliat lecture room nya kosong...baru sadar pas nanya temen dan ternyata lecturenya jam 3 sore!!! aduhhh kacauu...

mami gue suka bilang "coba klo kepala bisa dilepas...kamu bisa2 keluar ngga pake kepala kamu!"
HAhhahahAhahaha....oh well....emang gue dari sononya begitu kali yah..mo diapain juga tetep aja begitu...ngga jelas...hehehehehheeh

2003-08-11T23:25:00.000+10:00

---Should she dump her fat guy? -itu ads yang ada di hotmail pas gue mo buka e-mail--

penasaran dgn title nya...gue click...terus akhirnya gini

"I've seen skinny guys get fat and fat guys turn skinny, but I've never seen a nasty guy suddenly turn nice. Sexual attraction is an important component of relationships, but attraction to a person's character is what sustains the chemistry in the long haul. If you really think he's "perfect" for you in every other way but one, I suggest you keep an open mind. After all, weight can change; character doesn't."

good point though...weight can change...character doesn't..tapi sometimes reality tuh ngga segampang itu..i mean kita pasti mikir "yang penting bae..bla bla.." but then...klo diperhatiin lagi..tentu tampang mendukung...bener ngga? pertama kali gue deket ama adam gue tanya dia 'personality atau tampang dulu?'...dia jawabnya "tampang"...terus gue pikir "beuh...this guy sucks..cuman liat luarnya doang".....then dia jelasin ke gue...klo tampang tuh yang bikin orang merasa penasaran..but he's not saying that klo tampang tuh segala2nya...jadi in conclusion...tampang dan personality harus balanced each other..getuh...

tapi pas gue kasih liat tampang gue waktu dulu pas gendut terus gue tanya "klo gue kaya gini loe bakalan tertarik ngga?"...dia dengan polosnya bilang "ngga"...AHAHHAHAHAHH...gue gaplok juga tuh monyet satu...AHHAhahaHAhahaa...

klo gue sendiri milih tampang atau personalitas yah? mmm...tergantung sih..tapi yang pasti gue selalu "jatuh" ke orang yang punya great sense of humour....tapi ngga juga sih..pertama gue ketemu adam..beuh! orang terdingin yang pernah gue temuin..ngga pernah ketawa...yang ada cuman senyum doang!! *ngga tau aja ternyata orangnya lebih kacau dari gue*....klo ma adam...yang paling bikin gue tertarik tuh apanya yah..talent nya sih....

pertama kali gue deket ama dia pas new year an taon 2000...jadi gue ama dia nonton kembang api getuh rame2 ama temen2nya dia juga...then after that...yang gue tau tuh dia selalu nempel di otak gue..udah kaya di lem pake super glue...mo segimana annoying/berisik/rese nya tuh orang satu...tetep aja nempel di otak...saaaaahhhhh......

jadi inget satu hari gue ketiduran getuh siang2..ada si adam...terus gue ngga tau kenapa kebangun terus gue ngeliat dia terus gue bilang "dam...mabok nih"....terus dia kaya "mabok apa?"...gue bilang "mabok cinta"..terus gue tidur lagi...AHHHAHAHHhahaha ngigau gue! well gue inget dikit2 sih....abis gue bangun si adam langsung ketawa2 nyeritain...hehehhehehhe... kacau kacau......

udah ah..ntar gue tambah mabok...
---i just can't control myself..can't be with no one else..it seems i'm addicted to the way you like to touch me...i don't think they understand..---j-lo

2003-08-11T22:59:00.000+10:00

...ga ada gawe... :( nuthing to duu..hari ini gue day off..adam uni sampe jam 3..ayam KFC yang tinggal satu dicuri si baby...huah!! sebel...gue tuh tadi nungguin adam ke rumah gue..jadi gue dari pagi belom makan dan makan2 tuh jam 4-an...(adam sampe rumah gue jam 3.45)..terus gue kebawah cari makanan..ada bubur yang kemaren gue beli dan ada ayam KFC 1 lagi yang koko gue beli kemaren...udah laper2...gue pikir "ah makan di kamar aja enak..anget"...gue bawa tuh bubur ama KFC...i repeat..yang tinggal satu!! terus gue taro di karpet..dan gue ke computer mo ngasih liat something ke adam...pas gue noleh...waaaaa piiringnya kok kosong!!! terus gue liat si baby lagi asik di deket ranjang makan KFC...sial!!! pas mo gue ambil percikan2nya (takut kotor)..eh dia malah gggrrrrrrr.....dih pengen gue tendang!...sebel banget...terus gue musuhan sama tuh kupret satu...sebel...klo si adam terus nyela2 si baby...(kaya dia ngerti aja)...hehehehhehe....wah asli sebelnya ngga kira2..huaah...anyway...speaking of makan jam 4..sampe sekarang gue belom makan apa2 lagi..well makan alvocado sih...mmm lagi diet nih..tapi gue bingung juga..jarang2 gue kaga napsu makan...ngga tau gara2 gue enek makan kacang ijo (gue diet kacang ijo..jadi 1 hari ngga makan apa2 selain kacang ijo..) HEheheEHeh..ngga tau emang udara dingin bikin gue males kebawah cari makanan...mmmm aneh juga....oooh i know why....gara2 gue sakit gigi!! gigi belakang gue tumbuh..huahh..sakit!..

2003-08-11T15:46:00.000+10:00

I waited 'till i saw the sun
I don't know why i didn't come
I left you by the house of fun
I don't know why i didn't come

When I saw the break of day
I wished that i could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching treardrop in my hand

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Out across the endless sea
I would die in ecstasy
But i'll be a bag of bones
Driving down the road alone

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever

Something has to make you run
I don't know why i didn't come
I feel as empty as a drum
I don't know why i didn't come (3X)

"don't know why" --Norah jones

2003-08-11T11:52:00.000+10:00

Hola..hari ini gue dapet brief-nya david jones punya windows installment...jadi student di uni gue tuh dikasih kesempetan buat nge design window display nya mereka..david jones tuh one of the biggest shopping centre di australia...mereka kasih kesempetan ini dalam rangka exhibition di Biennale of Sydney..gue team up sama si adam..can you imagine klo design gue dan adam kepilih diantara student yang laen??? semua orang bakalan nge liat design gue!!! david jones nya tuh yang di city...dan di jalan itu tuh millions of people ngelewati setiap hari nya...waaa gue harus dapetin kesempetan ini!!!...jadi gue nanti the end of semester bakalan ngasih proposal beserta mock up kira2 display nya kaya gimana...nanti orang2 dari david jones sama dari biennale of sydney bakalan dateng untuk ngeliat..dan milih yang mana yang bakalan mereka pake...then the whole installment and stuff like that tuh kira2 june taon depan...jadi antara january 2004- june tuh whoever yang kepilih mikirin gimana cara bikinnya, berapa budget nya...atau apa yang harus dirubah..waaaaaa.....semoga gue sama adam bisa kepilih...*cross finger*......

2003-08-10T19:57:00.000+10:00

--don't judge a book by it's cover--

Funny we often heard those word or even say it tapi kita sendiri suka judge something by it's cover..i remember i used to think that all those hardcore music sucks and stuff..but then after listening to their stuff..i think they are freaking talented...especially manson..and now i luuuvvv his "beautiful people"...looking back..gue rasa yang bikin gue untuk "open" up tuh karena gue ngerasain rasanya being judge by the "cover".. i remember reaksi2 certain people klo tau klo gue ambil digital media (film/animation, etc)....as if gue tuh ngga ada masa depan aja..apa lagi knowing klo si adam ambil design...kaya gue sama dia tuh pasangan yang bener2 ngga bermasa depan aja...gue rasa klo gue ngga sama adam kali gue udah broke down in tears...gue salut sama dia coz dia bisa "tutup" kupingnya dan maju terus tanpa peduliin orang disekitarnya bilang apa....i remember i used to tell him klo gue ngga yakin sama apa yang gue ambil..dan dia jawabnya cuman gini "klo semua orang ambil business atau lawyer..siapa yang nge design-in barang2 buat mereka?"....and i remember reading this book yang bilang "creative people are not made..there are born with it"..

2003-08-10T19:31:00.000+10:00

Hola!..hehhehe..setelah menghilang beberapa hari akhirnya gue connect juga..oh well...ngga kerasa gue ma adam dah 3 1/2 taon lagi..and it's been fun...and hell as well...hehEheheh..but hey..nobody's perfect...and i think yang bikin gue sama adam awet tuh karena kita punya kelemahan..we kindda support each other..kindda tell each other what is good and what is bad...but i bet klo loe ngeliat gue ama adam loe bakalan mikir ''nih orang pacaran atau pacaraannn..."...HAhaHA coz we don't do the "romantic" stuff..most of the time gue ama adam kindda ngebicarain ttg design or cuman ngomongin bullshit stuff...he is such a creative person and i respect him a lot..and one thing yang i really like about him is that dia ngga pernah ngerasa jealous or shit like that...oh well..here i am.."blabbering" about shit....oooh kemaren gue beli papan surf...can't wait till summer...mo belajar surfing..kemaren gue belinya yang murah dulu..beli di toko second hand getuh..abisnya sayang klo langsung beli yang baru..just in case i'm gonna hate it...tapi rasanya sih ngga...ntar gue ama adam mo coba2 sendiri...yang susah kan berdiri di papannya..jadi kemaren tuh papan surf nya gue taro di ranjang..then either gue/adam pretending klo kita tuh lagi di laut..and then one of us bakalan bilang "ombak ombakk"...terus whoever yang lagi di papan berusaha angkat badan dan berdiri..AHhahhahAha...si adam bisa kurang dari 1 sec tuh berdiri...gue bisanya 2 sec-an...Waaa..can't wait till summer....okie dokie then...better stop typing right now

--"i don't want you and i don't need you..don't bother to resist..i'll beat you..it's not your fault that you're always wrong..the weak ones are there to justify the strong..the beautiful people...the beautiful people...."--manson (the beautiful people)--

2003-08-04T09:53:00.000+10:00

heelooo...mmm paling enak emang bangun pagi..udara masih cerah...segerr... :) kemaren gue udah mo teler kebosenan...di rumah ngga ada gawe, soalnya koko gue pake mobil...bilangnya cuman bentar doang...tau2nya sampe sore *Seperti biasa*...akhirnya jam 5-an gue pergi juga sama si adam..ke neutral bay...sambil bawa2 camera vilia gue...aneh..klo ada camera di tangan tuh rasanya gateeell pengen nge fotoin apaa ajaa...jadi kemaren jeprat jepret..abis deh 36!! hehehehhe sekarang pengen cepet2 dicuci..ntar ah jam 12-an gue pergi...speaking of jeprat jepret...kemaren ini gue lagi dalam perjalanan pulang ke rumah..pas lagi di chastwood tuh gue ngeliat ada mamah2 sama anaknya..terus tiba2 gue liat si mamahnya jalan aja lurus sedangkan anaknya berenti di deket taneman...gue pikir "kok anaknya ditinggalin yaah"...eeeh ngga lama si anaknya buka celananya...terus dengan santainya KENCING!! di keramaian jalan.. *anaknya cowo*....terus gue pengen foto pake hp gue..pengen kasih liat si ipone...eeh tapi mobilnya keburu jalan....*damn!*...aduh gila lah...terus abis kencing bukannya cepet2 pake celana..malahan garok2 pantat dulu...AHHhahshhahha..enak kali yah..dingin2 getuh...hehehehheh..pantesan mamahnya jalan duluan..malu juga dia kali....ehhaHEhahahEHhahha.....

2003-07-31T18:55:00.000+10:00

foto yang gue ambil pake camera Vilia *russian camera* yang sekarang udah ngga di produsi lagi..kindda rare..*i think*..keren ngga? mmm gue lagi di uni, tadi siang ngutak ngatik nih blog, pengen naro gambar dari computer gue, pas di liat di rumah, gambarnya ada..tapi pas liat di uni...ngga ada...huah..masa kita cuman bisa taro gambar yang ada di web doang?? ppoonnee...yuu hhuuuuu...helepp dong..gimana sih caranya? gue tadi beli buku html..pengen bikin website buat porfolio gue..kindda excited about it...jadi tugas2 gue selama ini bakalan ada disana..including gue punya 3D animation yang bener2 simple..hehehhe....oh well..ada kelas 4 menit lagi..gotta goo....ta taa..

2003-07-30T23:00:00.000+10:00

capeq!!..hari ini gue ke uni..*setelah libur hampir 2 bulan*...untung kelasnya jam 1-4..tapi jam 3 udah boleh keluar...koko gue bilang dia mo pake mobil sampe jam 5 doang...jadi gue pikir "mmm..minta dia jemput aja di uni"...daripada gue jalan kedinginan...mending gue hang around di rumah si adam 1-2 jam-an *rumahnya si adam tuh 5 menit jalan dari uni*..jam 5-an akhirnya gue beli makanan india di deket uni..soalnya gue pusing..(kedinginan dan kelaperan)...abis itu coba tlp koko gue...eehh ngga diangkat..uummphh...*gemes*...akhirnya gue ama si adam nunggu di bar deket uni..sekalian minum2..biar badan anget, sekalian santai2..soalnya hari biasa tuh sepi..paling males klo weekend..PENUH!..*kata si adam*..gue baru pertama kali ke bar di deket uni itu...namanya fringe...bagus deh...suasananya tenang...waaahhh..ngobrol2, sambil nyoba tlp ke koko gue...masih belom diangkat juga..akhirnya gue pikir daripada nungguin tlp kaya orang gila, mending gue jalan pulang...jadi ngga berani minum banyak2..takut ntar pusing di jalan...gila pas gue jalan dinginnya mo mati!! gini deh klo lagi pergantian cuaca..siang2 panas..malem2 dingin...sebel..jadi tuh dari uni ke city gue jalan..20 menit..instead of naek bus (soalnya klo udah malem tuh busnya jarang banget) sampe2 di station rumah gue..(30 menit dari city) kaki kiri gue rasanya kaya ditarik2 uratnya...NNnnYYyyuuuTTT..gilaa...kaki yang waktu itu tiba2 dingin sampe gue masuk emergency...bethe nih badan gue kayanya mo copot semuanya..waktu itu punggung, sampe ngga bisa jalan...baru2 ini kaki..sampe masuk hospital dan bertongkat2 ria...wuaahh....aneh...tau ah gelap...jadi sampe2 rumah langsung mandi pake aer panas...waahhh...rasanyaaa..uenak nyoo...

2003-07-30T10:01:00.000+10:00

morning!....mmm nice weather...matahari cerah...udara lumayan panas..spring is coming...yee-haaa....bisa ke pantai lagi...kemaren ini gue ke bondi sama si adam...makan di gelatto cafe..breakfast-nya enak banget...*yuuummm*...but...yang paling enak tuh waktu dalam perjalanan mendekati kesana, dimana laut tuh mulai keliatan dimata..WAAaaaHHhh...ngga bisa di jelasin gimana rasanya....birruu..luuaass...waaahhhh.....seandainya gue monyet, pas gue lagi gelantung2 di pohon tuh pada saat itu gue bisa jatoh kali...soalnya terpesona...ehhehehehee....makanya gue suka sebel sama orang yang ngga suka ke pantai gara2 "takut item"...uuurrghh pengen gue getok bakiak....but i guess tiap orang punya kesenengan yang berbeda2...speaking of pantai...pengen belajar SURFING!!!....dari jaman batu juga gue pengen belajar....tapi no money... :( ntar ah nabung2 buat beli papannya....gue ada sih..tapi yang body surf...yaahh itu mah sama aja kaya pelampung!..ngga ada beda...koko gue emang kurang kerjaan beli kaya gituan...tapi lumayan lah..maen ombak pake itu seru juga..dan biasanya tuh yang ada si adam marah2...soalnya kan timingnya harus pas...dan yang pas tuh lagi si ombaknya belom pecah kan (lagi nge gulung2)..but then...klo ombaknya gede gue takut juga (padahal itu justru enaknya)...jadi biasanya si adam bilang "yeeeii elooooo...katanya maauuu yang seruuu!!!" dan biasanya setelah dia kebosenan maen ombak gue tuh malahan lagi asik2nya..HAhahahHAha..jadi dia harus temenin gue sampe gue kebosenan...(bukan kebosenan maen ombak..tapi kebosenan ngedenger dia ngomong "udahan yuuuu")...wuah..jadi pengen ke pantai..ntar ah tunggu panas...asikk bisa gosong lagi..wuuu huuuu....

2003-07-30T04:09:00.000+10:00

Numpang, saya numpang ya nyet

"Knock knock, cilpieee...ini ipone neeeeeh....gua dateng mau ngeramein blog elo." Loe kangen ngga ama gua? Kalo kangen liat aja ya itu foto boneka di sebelah kiri. Cakep ya? Ya pasti, orang itu gua...hehe. Cilpie hari ini ngapain nih? Ipone tadi ngobrol loh ama tante Maria. katanya si tante, dia lagi erobik, adam lagi bersihin badan soalnya mau menghilangkan bb, koko arief lagi makan soalnya takut kurus, kalo baby ngudek2 tanah, kalo cilpie...katanya cilpie suka ngumpet di wc, tante bilang, "ya rutinitas lah pone...anak saya mah dari dulu juga jago ngupil, waktu di perut juga suka ngegeliktikkin perut ngupil melulu." Hehe...
Eh Nyet, gua hari ini mau ke cols, ohio lagi, soalnya margaret mo pindah rumah, hihi, entar gua mau foto2 ah sama pochi, siapa tau pochi bisa dorong koper :D
Gua sekarang cabut dulu yah, mau ngepack. Dah cilpie...
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